Sometimes depression creeps up on you when you least expect it. You’re having a normal day and suddenly you feel that wave crash over you. Overwhelming, intense and inexplicable depression. You don’t know what triggered it or what’s feeding it; all you know is that you are suddenly consumed by hopelessness and loneliness and anxiety. … More Sneaky Depression
This is one of the many go to phrases that you hear a lot in relation to mental illness and it is probably one the best in my opinion. Depression and suicidal thoughts are more often than not temporary, they might come back again at a later date, but more than likely you will eventually … More A permanent solution to a temporary problem?
Nobody talks about when you’re “okay” and I don’t mean when you feel alright and everything is going as it should – I am talking about when you are so painfully and exhaustingly “okay”. When you are okay because you are numb. You have gone so far beyond caring that you have lost the ability … More How can the absence of pain be so painful?
Sometimes I feel like I have to apologise for being alive. I don’t deserve my place here; at his university, in this company, in this house, in this relationship. I’m worthless and everything I do is nothing but an inconvenience to others. I can’t do anything right, I mess it all up and everyone else … More Diary of a disaster
It’s somewhere between feeling okay and feeling overwhelmingly depressed, a grey area that sometimes serves as a transitional period between these two states of mind. Which is a perfect way to describe it because it feels as though the world around you has lost all colour, life in greyscale. It’s that time of day when … More What emptiness feels like
I’ve been struggling more than usual to write anything creative. I’ve even been struggling to keep up with my book Instagram account. I haven’t read a book in weeks, I haven’t written a short story in months and months. I have no motivation and my ability to enjoy things seems to have dwindled. These activities … More My dip in creativity
This blog started as somewhere to post my creative writing but my short stories quickly became outnumbered by mental health posts. But the two are linked! I’ve always had a very active imagination, make-believe was my favourite game as a kid. I loved reading and would completely immerse myself in the worlds I found between … More Escapism
Inspired by my new “You know what I hate” series, because there are just so many classic phrases that sufferers of mental illness hear all too often. The following statements have all been said to me and miraculously I didn’t punch any of these people. Other people have it worse than you do Happiness is … More Things you shouldn’t say to someone with a mental illness.
You don’t think you’re special, because why would you? You are so used to everything about you; the way you think, your attitude, your intelligence, your outlook. It’s ordinary to you. Everyone thinks like that, why would you presume otherwise? You’ve been this way your entire life. And granted the nature of “ordinary” and “average” … More You’re not special
People who say that happiness is a choice. Really? It’s a choice? So I’m just choosing to be depressed. It’s belittling, it’s narrow-minded and it’s bullshit. By telling someone that happiness is a choice you are completely invalidating their feelings. You’re implying that they are suffering because they woke up that morning and chose to … More You know what I hate; Part 2
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