Drip. Drip. Drip. Anxiety is like a dripping tap. A deafening, echoing dripping tap. No matter how hard to turn that tap, how tightly you grip it, until your fingers are sore and your hands are calloused. It does not stop dripping. But it’s not a normal dripping tap. It taunts you and teases you. … More Anxiety is a dripping tap
Sometimes I feel like I have to apologise for being alive. I don’t deserve my place here; at his university, in this company, in this house, in this relationship. I’m worthless and everything I do is nothing but an inconvenience to others. I can’t do anything right, I mess it all up and everyone else … More Diary of a disaster
Gary had a new scheme. After the collapse of his latest business venture, online psychic readings, the failed entrepreneur had secured a loan for a new plot that he claimed was a “guaranteed money maker.” And he wanted further investment help from his good friend, Alastair. But Alastair hadn’t forgotten the two grand that Gary … More The Latest Tourist Trap
Have you ever felt out of place? Like you didn’t belong? I’ve never felt anything but I got used to it from an early age. At home I was in the way, I was a burden, another mouth to feed. A punching bag for my brother. A buzzing fly that followed my sister round. At … More Where do I belong
It’s somewhere between feeling okay and feeling overwhelmingly depressed, a grey area that sometimes serves as a transitional period between these two states of mind. Which is a perfect way to describe it because it feels as though the world around you has lost all colour, a life in greyscale. It’s that time of day … More What emptiness feels like
I’ve been struggling more than usual to write anything creative. I’ve even been struggling to keep up with my book instagram account. I haven’t read a book in weeks, I haven’t written a short story in months and months. I have no motivation and my ability to enjoy things seems to have dwindled. These activities … More My dip in creativity
This blog started as somewhere to post my creative writing but my short stories quickly became outnumbered by mental health posts. But the two are linked! I’ve always had a very active imagination, make believe was my favourite game as a kid. I loved reading and would completely immerse myself in the worlds I found … More Escapism
This is one of the many go to phrases that you hear a lot in relation to mental illness and it is probably one the best in my opinion. Depression and suicidal thoughts are more often than not temporary, they might come back again at a later date, but more than likely you will eventually … More A permanent solution to a temporary problem?
A few months ago my wife, Amy, lost her father. He had been senile since her mother past away a few years previously but Amy still went to see him every week, no matter how painful it was for her. He had been a science professor in his young days, such an intelligent man and … More Amy’s acting strange
Sometimes depression creeps up on you when you least expect it. You’re having a normal day and suddenly you feel that wave crash over you. Overwhelming, intense and inexplicable depression. You don’t know what triggered it or what’s feeding it; all you know is that you are suddenly consumed by hopelessness and loneliness and anxiety. … More Sneaky Depression
