“Anxiety is love’s greatest killer. It makes others feel as you might when a drowning man holds on to you. You want to save him, but you know he will strangle you with his panic”

She wants the earth to swallow her up. How quickly her happiness dissipated, how quickly her face forgot how to smile. Her mouth isn’t working at all, her words get trapped in her throat and try to crawl their way back inside her. Her brain completely shuts down. There are no synapses firing, no blood flowing. Her faculties have abandoned her and her soul has shrunk away into nothing. In that moment, when his words are showering her like bullets, she has no shield or weapon or white flag to present. He gets louder and angrier but her stillness remains unwavering. She digs inside herself looking for the words she should say but her mind is a book of blank pages. His words, his face, the room around her become a haze she is lost in. Overwhelmed by the weight of her fear and anxiety, she retreated into herself and she found only an empty space, and now there is no escape.

There’s no turning back, there’s no way to fix what has been done. There is nothing to do but wait to disappear.

Quote by Anais Nin